I finished my Oxford degree🎉

I sat my last Oxford Finals exam 2 weeks ago and officially ended my degree🎉 Above is the video I edited to show you my trashing. Trashing is an Oxford tradition whereby a person’s friends throw things at them after they’ve finished their last exam. It’s oddly liberating. Usually, the items they throw consists of confetti, shaving foam and coloured powder. However I saw a video of someone I know being taped to a tree stump whilst their friends threw eggs at him…they’re not all like that though. After being covered in all that stuff, the people who have been trashed tend to jump into the River Cherwell to wash off a bit. So if you want to see me go through all of the above then press the video link above.

After finishing Finals I got busy again quite fast😂I organised timings to film with various students for a new video project I’m starting. I won’t say too much yet but it’s pretty much an independent access initiative that I aim to launch in August or September. So stay tuned! At the same time I was meeting friends too which was sweet, and attended Balliol college ball!~

I returned home (London) a few days ago! My brain is slowly becoming less…frazzled. I spent the day sorting out my wardrobe and unpacking properly. I can’t think properly when my rooms messy and I think I needed to declutter to help me relax, lol. It’s quite satisfying sorting things out. I actually kinda like cleaning😂 And one of the things I was most looking forward to for the past 4 years of this degree was doing the final packing up!😂 I knew I could finally donate some of my last items for good. I tend to donate things at the end of each term, but this time I could get rid of things I definitely wouldn’t need again because I wouldn’t be moving back into to student accommodation, you know? The last person I spoke to before I left Oxford was a lady I interviewed for my documentary on homelessness ‘Pray it Doesn’t Rain’. It was quite meaningful to see her again and I ended up giving her my bedding and some other items💜

Anyhow that’s it from me for now. I should be graduating soon so maybe I’ll touch base again then. Take care x

If you get trashed, good luck 世界。

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Ghosting

Late night story rambling. I wrote this in Chinese and then read it out in English lol.

喂~

你最近还好吗?好久没有看到你。好像碰到过一次但没有真心地看。

你最近怎么过你的日子呀?没有我在你身边应该很奇怪吧。

我还好,都习惯了。你在那边怎样?你羡慕我吗?

我这边的事都办好了。快要见到你。你会等我吗?

不瞒你说,有的时候是我羡慕你。真的。

你那边看起来很安静。我忘了那个气氛。

算了吧。我只是很想念以前的我们。

我们俩的缘分还不错呢。我可不可以用缘分这个词来表达我们的关系?

不知道。算了。我想不起来。

你知道吗,有时我说不出来你的名字。我一听就不认识。

我看镜子的时候会看到你但我知道你不在。

这样正常吗?那里安全吗?

我觉得我们俩挺像配~我很兴奋又跟你见面。

同时我还不敢又跟你见到你。

Good luck world.

 

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Have some music🎉

 

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Me with a dried red carnation flower (also my first self photo on this blog of 5yrs😲)

So I was meaning to write a few ‘heavier’ posts recently but I’m tired and kinda busy revising. I’ll get back to them soon though so dw~

I’ve wanted to create blog posts compiling playlists of my fave songs for ages now because I thought I could show you some new interesting sounds! But I kept having this 矛盾 about music being ‘haram’. We can talk about this another time because today is not heavy or deep🙅‍♀️ The short version though is that music motivates me a lot so *cough* here we are.

Today I wanted to show you some of the music I’ve been listening to very recently, as opposed to my current absolute faves (some of them haven’t had time to grown on me yet)! These are all from my current revision playlist although the tempos are quite varied. I think I can listen to anything if I’m focused, but before I get there some can be distracting😅😂

  1. ‘Thama – Sing It’ This one’s really chill and I like it
  2. ‘Jay Park – Ben Baller’ My fave part is 1:07🤷‍♀️
  3. ‘Beyoncé – Formation’ That mint car is so pretty wow
  4. ‘Ilira – Diablo’ An artist I’m still discovering
  5. ‘Will Smith – Arabian Nights’ The instruments👌🏽
  6. ‘Katie – Love Kills’ Her whole album ❤

I’ll leave you will six for now✨

I have my Oxford Finals (the exams at the end of an Oxford degree) next week! It feels like I’m about to start my Finals, but I’m actually just resuming exams. My coursemates and I had our oral/listening/interpreting exam a week before this term started, which was technically our first exam (although its counted as 1.5 exams, only worth 5.5% of my degree, and not even put on the exam timetable🙄). Next week we’ll be wearing the pink carnation flower to signify our ‘middle exams’ (theres an Oxford tradition for students to wear a white carnation flower for their first public examinations, pink for all the ones in the middle, and red for the final exam). It’s weird because there isn’t usually an 8 week gap in between wearing your white and pink carnations. Anyhow, I’m done in about 2 weeks🎉

We just had our final revision class and my friend was telling me about how they’re stressed and feel underprepared. I feel the same but I’ve accepted it. I’m predicting what my degree outcome may be and I don’t think I’ll be fully satisfied with it, but for now there’s no point externalising this and forcing myself to be miserable at times when I’m not. I just want to finish. I guess I’ll be back for more content on here and on my YT Channel once I’m done✌️

I made this to take a break from revising Chinese characters. The method was similar to this lil throwback. Also if you wanted to explore some more new music, I made some posts a few years back as introductions to different genres of modern Chinese music. Click the following links if you want to learn more:

  1. Chinese Pop, ‘C-Pop’
  2. Chinese Rap and Rock
  3. Chinese chill music, ‘ballads
  4. Bonus 

If you have Finals and need a new music playlist, good luck 世界。

此致敬礼,欣妍 – From Xinyan.

 

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Random Easter Vac things

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Yo! Sup?~

I came to the library a little while ago (I have my first two real exams next week…a week before terms actually starts but I’m not salty, ofc not) and had a sudden burst of energy lol. I have no one to share it with which reminded me that I haven’t updated my blog in a while.

I posted a new video today, here’s a link:

This and my last video (capturing my 22nd birthday celebrations) were not initially intended to be posted online. I wanted to film random clips for myself as mini ‘home videos’ but then I felt like they might be cute to share online. Tbh, I’ve had so many photos/videos get deleted in the past (most likely my prized possessions) that posting these online seems like the best form of Cloud storage :p

The other day my friend was commending me on how I’ve been ‘putting in work’ on my blog from day 1. They spoke about how I’d been compiling blogposts by conducting research, talking about topics that aren’t widely spoken about, and practising extended writing without a proper incentive. It was sweet. However it reminded me of something I had thought of a while back. Some of my recent few (very few actually) posts have mainly been reshares of videos from my new YouTube channel and not the type of content based posts I used to write. I felt a bit guilty about it, but honestly I’ve been too busy to write blogposts I’d be satisfied with. I have been putting quite some effort into YouTube however. I realised I really enjoy the video stuff. Infact it only hit me kind of recently.

Photos and videos are one of my biggest hobbies. I like them a lot. Taking them, being in them, editing them etc. One of my old methods of procrastination was to look through old photos/videos in my laptop (my old laptop that has since died, rip). I would sometimes come across old videos I made as a child, but I only recently reflected on this and realised…hold up…I’ve been making videos for since I was little…I must enjoy this!😂🤦🏽‍♂️

My YouTube channel was initially created for the main purpose of advertising my University course, Chinese Studies with Korean. I began this when I was taking part in Oxvlog but never got to finish my goal. Once I had finished most of the course related content I had set out to produce on my channel, I began making videos more for my own fun. I’m not too bothered with the amount of views those videos get so long as I still have fun making them. Sounds very 2009 I know 🤷‍♀️😂. I think my channel has a few different genre of videos; Informational/course related, Awareness/activism, Reaction videos, Conceptual videos for stress relief, Random things for fun. If you have seen any of my videos, what is your fave type?

I feel like I could write a book right now but I gotta get back to work. Btw, no one dare to ask me ‘what Masters’ I’ll be doing after I finish this degree. I hate education now and I’m done :)) Good night xx

If you post a random video online,

good luck 世界,

此致敬礼欣妍 – From Xinyan.

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二月22号的秘密

我知道我妈是我的读者所以如果你用谷歌来翻译这片文章请你别担心,我真的OK。

今天我老师遇见我在学院里。她问我这周为什么没来上课。我只能说出四个字。“我身病了”. 我说了身病可是我的意思是’神病’,但我遗憾她没感到我的意思。

如果我没来上课请你别建议我去认真地学习。我看起来这么笨嘛。谢谢, 我也想努力学习。请你别想我对我成绩不认真。请你别假定我是那么随便的学生。我没来上课因为我没法上。这周我没法起床。我是要上课,要起床但结果是一整下午都失去了。

另外,亲爱的同学们,如果我说我身病了请你相信我。我不需要你冷漠的瞪眼。至少要一点支持,可不可以。

我只要毕业。对了,请你别问我“毕业以后打算读什么博士学?”,我不想发脾气。

我不生气,只想喊到我的一些烦恼。

如果你分享你心里的烦恼,世界我祝你好运。

此致敬礼,欣妍。

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伊斯兰国新娘 – ‘Isis Bride’

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沙米玛·贝居姆2015年离开英国投奔叙利亚跟一位伊斯兰国战斗者结婚。四年后她表示想要回英国,因而她的情况引起了极大关注。目前很多英国人热议沙米玛是否要回国还有内政部是否要剥夺她的公民身份。根据英国法律,英国政府不能剥夺一位英国人的公民身份因为这样造成的结果是这个人什么国家的身份也没有了。然而让人不可理喻的是由于沙米玛母亲有孟加拉国的护照英国内政部就决定剥夺她的公民身份。

在一方面,我们得考虑一下沙米玛本身的困难。许多人辩证她前往叙利亚的时候并不是孩子而她可以作出合理的选择。可是我不同意呢。我觉得一般的年轻人不像成人一样,做不到合理的选择。当时她是一位15岁的姑娘,在这个娇嫩年龄她被保证为她给予稳定的男生诱奸。并且她目睹了战争的暴力;她之前还曾生产了三个孩子,但很不幸两个宝宝已经死了。那么我的结论是这个姑娘遭受了巨大的压力,她目前需要恢复。

在另一方面,有人说沙米玛不得回英国因为她潜在威胁。在我看来她本身有直接的威胁也有间接的威胁的可能性。

首先,允许她回英国的直接威胁是救焚益薪保持极右观点的组织,比如英国防御联盟。这些极右组织平常感到英国政府不支持他们组织的运动,所以沙米玛的返回会给那些组织带来另一个痛苦的结果。这个丢脸的后果可能是社会外上的动乱。其次,他人说沙米玛会利用她恐怖组织人士背景来说服其他英国人民。不过我还是觉得她没有足够权利来实施这个目的。如果她如意回到英国,她在伊斯兰国的经验很有可能会让她被官方抓到。如果她入狱,那么我认为她的年龄和性别会给她更低的地位所以她不会影响其他囚犯,特别是男的。因为她年龄19岁她将会被判入劳教所,而且她可能会入一个只有女生的劳教所。这样她也有可能是年龄最大的囚犯之一。

在这个情况之下她可能会给比她年龄小的囚犯带来影响不过我仍然觉得她没有足够力量来影响她们。

我认为最合理的是准予她申请回英国的上诉,不要让她立即回国。我认为强行剥夺她的公民身份是一个不正确的事情。并且剥夺的话她的宝宝就没有公民身份了。准予上诉的权利一边会安抚极右组织的分子因为他们知道政府没有胡乱地允许她回国,一边会安抚想给沙米玛一份机会的人们,因为这样她就是收到一份机会。上诉也是最公平的选择因为上诉提供的宣判是来自法律而不仅是来自人情。当然因为她跟恐怖分子的经验所以‘伊斯兰国新娘’的问题保留很多辛酸的回忆与感情。人民就忘不了伊斯兰国的犯罪所以大家会容易恨这个姑娘,但是我觉得这样不太好。我觉得沙米玛必须被处罚,不过这个过程要公平。为了她自己和她宝宝需要公平。

1040个字。

牛津大学中文系四年级的本科生,欣妍/Nabeela Zaman。

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