跟姐的感言

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你们还好么?在我最新英文版的文章我又说了我想更好的向你们自绍。我是大概四年以前建这个博客的,可是一开始的时候我不想让大家知道我真实的身份所以我总是会利用我中文名字‘欣妍’来写文章。如果你想更了解我中文,英文,和其他名字的意义你可以点这个文章去看看。

昨天我终于跟我在牛津伊斯兰学生团体群里见到的一位朋友见面。我很激动才能跟她见到因为她是我唯一的在牛津城市认识的中国穆斯林女孩。现在我就叫她姐姐。我们昨天去了英国很又名的一家咖啡馆,聊了几个小时。我们聊了很多深刻的问题,包括我们的极限身份。回到学院以后我很想写许多文章,可是这次我就给你分析姐在她微信圈里发的话。

下面都是姐写的:

【“Good Luck,世界。”
有个在西方常被用滥的句子,叫“世界之大,有多元可能性”,不论走在哪里,我都常被某种人吸引。他们不拘禁在自己的圈子里,游历四方;具有多重看似矛盾的身份,敢于做少数;同时又有担当和责任感。这个我仨月前就在FB上认识的姑娘,终于在今天下午正式出现在我面前。“姐姐!”她开心地喊出来。
我不惊讶很多白人学中文,也本不应该惊讶这个孟加拉裔戴头巾的英国姑娘能从11岁就开始学中文,以至于我们今天下午的对话大半都用流利中文进行。

“我既是英国人,又是孟加拉人。有时候觉得挺挣扎,因为正是因为前一种人的存在,才有了后一种人(英国殖民历史对于南亚大陆的影响)。至今,我经常被认成是非英国人,仅仅因为我的肤色。”
“也有朋友对我说,难道巴基斯坦和孟加拉国不是一个国家吗,我其实还挺生气的。‘当然不是啊,我们是两个不同的文化!’”

“我是穆斯林,但是什叶(伊斯兰中的少数教派,世界范围内,包括牛津,大部分穆斯林属于逊尼)。什叶真正让我认识到为何要遵守某些宗教规范,但正是因为它是少数,所以很多什叶不敢‘出柜’(告诉他人自己的什叶身份)。”
戴头巾是她自己的选择,从很小时侯,她就问妈妈能不能戴头巾了,妈妈直到她长大后才允许她戴。然而戴头巾并没影响她对于时尚的追求,她热爱色彩,常常穿不同的颜色在身上,明亮地散发热量。她热爱韩流,毕业论文将探讨被韩流影响的中国青年。

在同学们为各种华丽实习机会趋之若鹜时,她拿起相机,走上牛津街头,记录那些无家可归的人的故事,“家对于我来说是如此重要的存在,我无法想象没有家的我,会是怎样”;牛津是一个很“白”的学校,很多人问她是否受过种族歧视,在回答了太多遍之后,她想,干脆做个视频,收集牛津人受到各种各样歧视的故事,一起展示给公众。“我的记忆力很差,想做的事情很多,于是想趁现在快点记录下来,怕我自己遗忘,也怕被世界遗忘。”

姑娘是少数中的少数,但她并未因为而被边缘化,而是为自己的身份而骄傲,并且不怕‘出柜’。“我想让让更多人看到我们的存在。”坚定而有力。

姑娘中文名欣妍,牛津本科中国研究大四,有自己的博客,YouTube频道,FB主页,Ins直播。“我对一切创作都感兴趣。”(图片来自她的博客)

希望她洒下的种子,在各处都能发芽。❤️】

如果你想在博客“出柜”你的身份,我祝你好运。

此致敬礼,欣妍。

 

另外姐发给我:孟子曰:”舜发于畎亩之中,傅说举于版筑之间,胶鬲举于鱼盐之中,管夷吾举于士,孙叔敖举于海,百里奚举于市。故天将降大任于是人也,必先苦其心志,劳其筋骨,饿其体肤,空伐其身行,行弗乱其所为,所以动心忍性,曾益其所不能。人恒过,然后能改。困于心,衡于虑,而后作。徵于色,发于声,而后喻。入则无法家拂士,出则无敌国外患者,国恒亡。然后知生于忧患难与共,而死于安乐也。”

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Day in My Life: 26th Nov 18

There’s a few days left till the first term of my final year at Oxford is over! I filmed a cute ‘day in my life’ the other day (which was quite busy), take a look!~ I still haven’t showed much of my actual self on this blog despite having it for over 4 years, I think you’ll get to know me a bit more through this~

If you film a day in your life, good luck 世界。

此致敬礼,欣妍 – From Nabeela.

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Lost in a Beijing Carpark

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YouTube: GoodLuckNabs

I just uploaded a YouTube video. The name is the same as this post. I’ll share with you what I wrote in the video description:

“I’m procrastinating at the moment and was looking through a few of my old videos. I thought I’d share this unedited clip for the heck of it and probably delete later. I was planning on editing videos I filmed on my year abroad ages ago but I think I’ve left it too late. If I need to procrastinate this year during my finals (final year of university) I may end up editing some of those clips for fun since I have a lot of footage to work with. When I filmed them I never imagined they’d go on YT, they were just for friends and family. Let me know if you’d want to see some of those though. It’s quite funny because in some of those clips I wasn’t sure how to end the video or use my camera, but since then I’ve been using my camera so much! Hopefully my editing will get better with time too 😛 Besides that when I look through my laptop I notice that I have been filming things for a really long time and I have clips from years ago, I might share some of those one day. Back to work now, bye xx Ps. Looking back at that clip made me wonder why didn’t try to use the awesome setting for filming a proper video etc! I was in a rush that day, but shows that things really change in a year :P”

Link to the video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2L_MezEwhec&t=2s

If you get lost in a car park in Beijing, good luck 世界。

此致敬礼, 欣妍 – From Xinyan

 

BTS helps you study!?#방탄소년단

bts_high_school_uniform_png_by_superseoul11-db7m3oh.pngHeres a quick impromptu post from me!~

I go back to Oxford next week and I’m currently trying to tackle an essay. Yes, we were set an essay before term starts. And yes, the tutor wants us to hand in a physical copy of the essay; not only a day before the actual deadline, but also despite the fact that most of the class has not yet moved back into Oxford. Oh wait you didn’t ask🙄

You see BTS and ya click, am I right? Well in this case BTS doesn’t stand for ‘behind the scenes‘, its the name of a Korean pop group. I could confidently say that they are the biggest boy group in the world right now, they even gave a talk at the UN recently. But let me get back on track. Could it be that BTS has the power to help you study?..

I felt that I needed music to help me concentrate for a while. The problem with that is that since I’m not yet ‘in the zone’ for studying, the songs I hear will probably distract me. Basically I’ll probably start singing along. Then I decided to play instrumentals instead as they have no lyrics. The problem with that is that I’d probably get distracted by the familiar tune and still manage to at least mentally sing along#卡拉OK😂  AND THEN IT HIT ME Play an instrumental from a Kpop group that I don’t listen to!

Maybe you’ve already pieced this together, if you have then don’t come for me. I pretty much stopped listening to Kpop since starting uni, but I knew that a Kpop instrumental would at least sound interesting. BTS first came to mind because I trust their music to be good despite never getting round to finishing their albums. Btw if you have come across the group you might be surprised to know that they weren’t that popular when they started out. They’re from a smaller entertainment company, and I remember at the time of their debut I got them mixed up with BAP (a popular group at the time, coincidentally also with 3 letters and starting with a B).

So now I have a BTS piano instrumental playing in the background as I attempt to complete some reading. What you could take away from this is that if you’re in a work slump and need help focusing without getting bored, find the instrumental to an album from a Kpop group that you don’t listen to. This way you won’t be inclined to sing along and get distracted, and the music is likely to sound good.

I hope this was useful to you! Tbh I’m probably going to need more than an instrumental to save me right now, wish me good luck 世界。

此致敬礼 – 欣妍, From Nabeela ❤

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Let’s talk names!

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My name ‘Nabeela’ in Arabic.

Hey world~ Now that I’ve introduced myself I wanted to talk you through the meaning behind my names

As I have told you in my last post, my real name is Nabeela. I was once given a keychain with my name on it and it defined my name as ‘magnanimous’. I also came across a frame with the name Nabeela on it, which said that ‘Nabeela reveals inner beauty’, or something like that. So for a long time that’s what I thought my name meant. A few years ago however I was at an event and had to introduce myself to an Islamic scholar. When he heard my name he said “Oh you know that means noble in Arabic, right?”. So there it is, Nabeela means noble in Arabic. Upon a further Google search I learnt that it apparenly means noble in Swahili aswell.

I also recently discovered that my surname means ‘time’ in Arabic. So I guess my fullname is ‘Noble Time’ 😋 Or maybe I just found my potential rapper name🤔

What about Xinyan then? 欣妍 aka Xinyan is my Chinese name and has been my pen name since I created this blog 4 years ago. I’ve talked about how my Chinese name was chosen in one of my first posts so I won’t go into that again. The name Xinyan is comprised of the characters 欣 and 妍. Simply put, 欣 (xin) means ‘joy’, and  妍 (yan) means ‘beauty’. I’ve been told it’s quite a pretty name, but the overall meaning comes across better in Chinese. When you verbally introduce yourself to someone in Chinese you can tell them which radicals are in your name so that they know which characters to spell it with. I usually say something along the lines of…”欣赏的欣,研究的研但是左边是女字旁/女字旁和开”。

So what about the name of this blog? Again, I’ve explained my reasons for choosing this name in my first post (you can read that story here if you wish). This blog is called Goodluck世界 aka ‘Goodluck world’. 世界 means ‘world’ in Chinese, and the transliteration/pinyin is ‘shi jie’. That’s why I shortened the url to ‘goodlucksj‘.

My YouTube channel is called GoodLuckNabs. To keep it brief, it’s quite obvious that I chose this name to tie into my blog. I also chose this name so that I could wish myself luck for posting videos on the internet.

Those are all ‘my names’ that I thought needed explaining. Let’s now talk about ‘potential names’. I found out years ago that my mum considered naming me Zainab when I was born. Now that I’ve learnt about the figure of Lady Zainab (s.a), the granddaughter of Prophet Muhammed (pbuh), I think that would have been an honourable name. But I’m very happy with the name I was eventually given. A few months ago I asked my mum out of curiosity what she would have named me if I was born a boy. After some recalling she told me I would have been named Zachariah, or Zach for short. Isn’t that interesting! Have you ever found out what your ‘potential names’ were? Let me know in the comments! I noticed that my names involve a lot of and N, which is fateful enough because they become the same letter when turned on their sides!

You’d think I’d be done now, right? I have one final group of names in mind, but I’ll save those for sometime if they are ever put into use. These are two names I’ve thought of for a while (not sure why) if I ever had the chance to name someone. All I’ll say is that they begin with an ‘S‘ and a ‘Q‘.

Omg I thought I was done but all of the above was in respect to human names! (more or less..). Lastly, here are some of the potential names for if I ever got a kitten WHEN I get a kitten: Squishy, Chewy, Lilo, Milo, Saka, Lala!

And that’s all we have time for today! If you’ve read this far I’d love for you to tell me a bit about yourself and what your name means! Feel free to leave a comment and I’ll be sure to read it~

If you decided to go through a bunch of names that are linked to you, good luck 世界。

此致敬礼,欣妍 – From Xinyan/Nabeela.

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I’ve been hiding something…

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A few thumbnails from my YouTube videos. ‘GoodLuckNabs’

What’s up and welcome BACK to my blog! Hey, how are ya?~

As I’m writing this, my cousin is burning a disc of 80s songs for her mum. I’m currently trying to block out ‘Girls Just Wanna Have Fun’ so that I can concentrate on writing…wish me luck.

My blog just reached its 4 Year Anniversary! It feels only fitting to take this chance to finally properly introduce myself.

I created this blog when I was in Sixth Form and at the start I kept it a secret from everyone but my parents. Although the blog’s name was ‘Goodluck World’, I tried to keep it a secret from the world until I was about to ‘graduate’ from school. In our final school newsletter, I was given a slot to advertise my blog. I remember waiting for the school emails to see how my advert came out in the digital newsletter. I knew that most people ignored the newsletter, but I was nervous to be putting myself out so openly. One thing I mentioned in my ad was that my penname on the blog is ‘Xinyan’. I said that I didn’t want to use my real name because of ‘internet safety’, and whilst that was mostly true, it was also because I wasn’t ready for people I knew to find my writing. A lot has changed since then and they are mostly recent developments so I thought I’d go through them for you.

Just so I don’t keep you waiting, my real name is Nabeela, but we’ll get back to that soon. Maybe we should start with my first post. In summary, I talked about the general ideas for my blog and gave the backstory for the blog name. As you can see by scrolling up, this blog is called ‘Goodluck世界’. 世界means ‘world’ in Chinese, so my blog is ‘GoodLuckWorld’. I now have a YouTube channel called ‘GoodLuckNabs’, but again we’ll get to that soon.

Since this is an updated self-introduction I should tell you a bit more about myself. I am a female Muslim who is currently 21 years old. I live in London and I read a BA in Chinese Studies at the University of Oxford. Now we’re up to scratch! When I was applying to Oxford a friend who had just graduated from the university introduced me to ‘Oxvlog’. Oxvlog is a student run outreach project where Oxford students make YouTube videos about Oxford life in order to help applicants. I considered taking part myself one day but really didn’t feel brave enough at the time. Last year however in the 3rd year of my (4 year in total) degree I was one of the participant members. I became an Oxvlogger and actively put out content on our various social medias about student life. Being involved in the project only lasts for a year so I uploaded my final Oxvlog video this summer. In fact the rest of the team and I are in the process of recruiting new members for next year!

I had been told to make my own YouTube channel a few times as I was growing up. A friend told me to make a channel called ‘The Russian Asian’ based on a few voice impressions I used to do, and cousins told me to make a comedy skit channel. I always said no because I was shy. Whilst pursuing Oxvlog it had dawned upon me that some of the video goals I had would not be completed within a year and that I may need to post things on a channel of my own. I also considered creating content that did not fit into the mould of what Oxvlog required and so I mentally prepped myself for making my own channel. Some of my Oxvlog viewers told me to make my own channel once the project was complete and a final push from a famous YouTuber is probably what started it.

I have always enjoyed filming things and editing videos. Looking through old files on my laptop reminded me of that and I was a bit surprised to have come across old videos I made when I was younger (I plan to maybe post one soon). At the same time as creating Oxvlog videos I started to film random clips that could maybe be used for something else one day. I also secretly began to work on an independent documentary focusing on homelessness in Oxford entitled ‘Pray it Doesn’t Rain’ and eventually released it on my own channel on my birthday.

Since then I have been uploading quite regularly. My main focus for my channel for now is to create content to better advertise my course. When I applied to Oxford there was little to no digital resources on Chinese Studies or other courses in the Oriental Studies department. I’ve been trying to put out content that may help prospective applicants for the course, and so far the response has been good. I’ve also been posting a few ‘vlogs’ or random videos on things I find fun. However, what I haven’t told people yet is that I’ve been planning to be active on my YouTube channel for only this coming year. I pushed myself to do Oxvlog because it was only for a year and now I plan to do the same with my own channel. After a year I’ll reassess and we’ll see how things go~

Years before all of this I posted a few song edits onto my YouTube account. These are all on private now but I recently made one public. When I was making my own YouTube channel I was told that I could simply change the name of my existing account and therefore keep the subscribers I already had. I finally decided to change the name from what it was to ‘GoodLuckNabs’ so that it could tie in to my blog. This way I also get to wish myself luck for posting public videos 😛 My Instagram handle ‘Nabblo’ is a nickname some friends gave me based on an artist I was inspired by called ‘Tablo’.

People have told me for a while to make a fashion blog or post outfit photos on my blog but I haven’t wanted to do that yet. This blog started off with me sharing things I researched about East Asian culture as well as sharing tips on how to learn Mandarin. Since then I have expanded my topics to also write about more serious lifestyle topics and occasional random things like this. Hopefully my blog will gets the makeover I was once promised by someone and things will continue to grow.

As you can see I’ve become more open with things and now my Instagram account is linked with this blog. You can literally see my face on the left-hand side of the homepage. Whereas it was only 2 years ago that I decided to use my face for my blog profile photo (and only half my face). I should probably update that soon actually.

Thank you for listening to this long self-introduction. I always end my posts with ‘From Xinyan’, but who knows, maybe now I’ll sign off as Nabeela 😉

If you have to summarise your online work and introduce yourself to your audience after 4 years whilst trying to block out the noise of 80s pop; good luck 世界。

此致敬礼,欣妍。- From Nabeela.

My YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/c/GoodLuckNabs1

My Oxvlog videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-6ywDBIZxs&list=PL_oP1g84hq4L1SiV5SxUQl8HUJTtJqyut

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P.s. the intro was inspired by Jefree Star 😛

Am I Caucasian?

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If you take away the first part, you’ll find that I’m very much Asian.

About a month ago I was talking to a friend and this story somehow came up in conversation. This story was set when I was in Beijing, and I know I said I had a lot I could talk about from this time in earlier posts, so maybe I’ll sprinkle some of those in every now and then.

If you remember, I previously touched on the topic of foreigners finding jobs in Beijing. As an overseas student, it was common to see random ‘jobs’ being shared around in group-chats. One of the lowkey paid opportunities was to help out in one off student surveys and experiments etc; but this is common in the UK too. So one time I signed up to help a PHD student with his psychology research. The topic was to do with whether or not a person’s facial expressions impact other people’s first impressions.

I arrived at a spot on campus close by to the researcher’s faculty waiting for them to walk me in. He eventually arrived and we engaged in small talk as we walked along. At one point he awkwardly stopped walking as he had to tell me something.

“So…this experiment is for Caucasians”

I was a bit taken aback and walked forward trying to figure out if I had misunderstood what the term ‘Caucasian’ actually meant. I asked him;

“What do you think Caucasian means?”

He told me it meant ‘white skinned’. Hmm. I thought to myself again. The criteria for his respondents was not pre-announced. I looked at my left arm and showed it to him.

“I don’t think I’m white, I never have been.”

We walked on a bit further and I asked him if thatwas okay. He said it was, I’m guessing he was desperate for respondents at this stage if his criteria really were Caucasian.

Once we arrived I filled out a really long survey and carried on with the actual research. I basically sat in a room and watched a screen with different people’s faces appearing with various facial expressions. This was followed by judging whether or not each face looked friendly or unfriendly.

I got paid at the end, and that’s that.

If you are confused for being Caucasian when you’re really just Asian, good luck 世界。

此致敬礼欣妍– From Xinyan.

P.s Eid Mubarak, 古尔邦节快乐。

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